Like Me

This is my second intro
because back then I wasn't look up to as a hero.
I was that family member that was seen as going nowhere
the friend that had a lot of talent but was still considered a zero.
Each day felt like a seesaw somedays were up some were down
maybe it was this town
that made my expression frown.
Maybe it was the friends I chose
the one that kept me on my toes whenever we were going to go get clothes
because I know how they like to impose.
But that's why I took advantage
and decided to take my damage
and vanish.
I didn't know what it was like to forfeit
leave the horses
that helped keep me out the coffin.
I knew that it was abrupt
but that's because I heard something from above that this was enough
find a new love
and that when you look at yourself in the mirror you won't see yourself in disgust.
All we wanted to be was kings
we knew we were young but all we needed were the rings
in order for us to have everything.
This is escape 101
for all the kids that are afraid and feel like five hundred tons
it's okay to run.
This is for all the kids like me all the kids that were tired like me
all the kids that were inspired like me
all the kids that felt like an outsider like me
all the kids that are like me Jesse Sedano. Extortion was who I was not who I am anymore because God came knocking on my door
and of course there was no way I was going to ignore.
I changed my life for the better
because everyday I felt under pressure
but now I know I'm under God's shelter.
I'm still trying to chase my dreams
because one day I'm going to get my family out of this scene.
My family is looking up to me
and there's no way we're going back to poverty
it doesn't matter if I grew up as a minority
I know what is my priority
and one day I'll also give back to my community. This is my life my story
and I know that I have family and friends that will always support me. -Jesse Sedano the kid that always shows up late to class.

Hazeus View

Hey Jesus will my friends ever see you through their Hazeus will they ever see the angel that helped their friend become faithful. How come they keep changing I personally need some explaining because their life is like some war painting I wonder how many of them are still remaining. The last I heard was that another one was gone but Lord I've been trying to hold on. It's hard to wake up to dawn and remember all the times that we were just little prawns doing small time cons not knowing what we were doing was so wrong. Please Jesus help them see through their hazeus. I know that their mind is clouded but show them that you're around give them time like you gave me sooner or later they'll hear the bells chime. They'll find true love once they check the rhyme. They just need time to figure out their problems so then they can blossom because when they were growing up they didn't have any role models. Help them look into the stars and see what's going on upstairs so they know that there's something to look forward to. They need you to help keep them uplifting and comforting rather than them drifting. All they ever wanted was for someone to be there for them but looks like the drugs helped them change and lead them to the gangs. If Heaven was a mile away would you still live life gray or would you run today because I know I wouldn't be able to stay in a world that has no escape.

Experiment

Chercher à celle de haute qualité, tout le monde veut être affichée comme jamais peur. Mais ce est une révision à la baisse parce que ce est un jeu qui ne devrait jamais être joué. Ils se détournent de leurs problèmes pour les bouteilles de toxines jusqu'à leur connaissance est allé jusqu'à l'automne prochain. Trouver quelqu'un qui vous aidera, profiter parce que les amis vont et viennent comme bagages. Soyez heureux. Soyez bavard. Soyez drôle. Soyez bâclée être quelque chose qui vous rend heureux parce que cette chose qui fait mal si mal peut se terminer rapidement.

Piece Of Mind

Why is it my dad has to be working 40+ hours a week why is it I grew up weak. Why couldn't I have a stay at home mom a mom that I can applaud whenever she can help keep me warm. The only person watching me was my brother but he'd rather be with other kids for the summer but he has to take care of his baby brother. Both parents anonymous but they promised that this would help give me confidence. But how was I supposed to believe that when every day there's new arguments in our apartments. Why is it we worked so much but yet life was still tough I guess that's what we get for not giving up. I guess that reflected on me at school because they thought of me as a distraction they should've put a caution sign on me because of all of my stupid actions but that's because I felt abandoned. Kicked out of school for not listening to the rules but I'm still holding on. Why could't my dad help me with sports or help me with life's different course because everyday I feel like it's getting worse. 5th grade I felt stray detention everyday had to write in the dictionary just to participate. It's cause I didn't put in enough effort something I will regret forever but it's something that I think of lesser. This is my piece of mind I was never designed for something like this so I need to rewind and stop walking around so blind. I realize this is reality this is all part of humanity what some people think as normality I think of my family because sometimes we live unhappily. This piece of mind helps give me peace of mind cause I know how I don't want to be with my family in the future.

My deepest fear

So i'm doing this thing where each song fits the blog so evidence- chase the clouds away is going to fit this song and then Piece of Mind by Joey Bada$$ is going to fit my next blog My deepest fear is when my mind isn't clear and my social anxiety takes over my reality. What happened to me I used to try to become friends with everyone but I guess that's because several of them when into Heaven. I just listen to my music in classes because i'm afraid that they're laughing at my fashion but I lose multiple chances to meet new people because my seat belt is already fasten. There are days where I think of giving into weed because sometimes I feel like it's something I need something that will help me feel free. I'm scared of going into work and finding out that I lost another one of my friends because any day now they can meet their end but I know that they've amends. They've accepted fate I wish I can debate but they'll soon reach their estate. I'm afraid to go home it's no rome but it's where my friends and I roll. Family is always arguing with each other it's like thunder no wonder why I always shutter. I'm afraid that I'll mess up with this new girl because when I'm with her my head starts to twirl I feel like i'm in a different world. I hope I don't become nervous oh I know she sees me squirmish but she thinks I'm a great person. I've never felt this way but I shouldn't get my hopes up because she can play with me like a jump rope. But I should be happy because I'm alive i'm living life everyday I survive. I must've chased the dark clouds away it's another day that I don't feel astray because the more I prey I know it'll be a good day. So I shouldn't complain because I'm not afraid I've learned to embrace and erase the mistakes that I used to display.

Crooked Smile

At first I couldn't stand myself but the beauty evened out the beast

 and now I hollow out the streets. I love my crooked smile 

because it shows all of my life style

 all the trials

 that I went through for awhile.

 To all the flawed 

people don't worry even those with those perfect smiles are all frauds

 but they're just better at hiding it then we are.

 It's better to be crooked

 and an open booklet

 because those that are wounded

 can't accept the rugged looking.

 I'm not insecure I'm just shy

 I'm one of those guys 

that girls just run by

 the one that can never supply

 that rich life

 but I do hope that one day I'll have a wife.

 But till then I'll just be living

 and forgiving because i'm missing

 all those kids that were practically my siblings 

but there's beauty in the struggle 

because even though they're in the hustle

 they're still figuring out the puzzle. 

That's when i'll be living cool calm collect 

full of content. 

But I can't help but doubt 

because there's always different routes 

I just hope that they don't succumb to the drought. 

Be happy with your imperfection

 because that's a collection 

of the rejection

 that happened throughout your adolescence.

 It gets better each time you accept it.

This is where I got the idea for this blog but to me this isn't really a blog to me anymore it's more like songs for me now.

Life The Biggest Troll

"It's the game of life. Do I win or do I lose? One day they're gonna shut the game down. I gotta have as much fun and go around the board as many times as I can before it's my turn to leave." -Tupac Shakur “We wouldn't ask why a rose that grew from the concrete for having damaged petals, in turn, we would all celebrate its tenacity, we would all love its will to reach the sun, well, we are the roses, this is the concrete and these are my damaged petals, don't ask me why, thank god, and ask me how” ― Tupac Shakur LIfe the biggest troll over time it takes a toll because you feel like you don't have control it can lead you through a black hole and can one day take that innocent soul. It doesn't matter who we are we all go through similar struggles it doesn't mean we have to go through that dark tunnel alone that's full of our troubles. When we the roses grew from the concrete it doesn't mean that we defeated what came from beneath we need to keep pushing because this world is still full of deceit. WE need to believe that we can succeed. I don't want to feel sadness but yet that's life it comes with different situations that everyone feels across the nations I wish I can chase them but I have to be patient. But of course that's life. You learn from your biggest mistakes when you're in pain or coming up into the real world with damaged petals but I guess that's what makes us special. Is our damaged petals because they can heal because then after everything that's happened. You can feel, You are alive you need to arise like sunrise you've survived don't be surprised tonight isn't the last time that you say goodbye.

Untitled

Today I didn't really know what to write mostly cause I've been confused with everything that's been happening lately. But today was a little different. Today was the first day that I didn't have work in a month I was asleep for 15 hours. But today I remembered all the friends that I have just recently lost and I couldn't handle it. That's why this post is mostly just the new songs that I put on today to help people get though tough times or the battle that they are fighting with themselves. The very first song is what helped me when my friend Brandon passed away. I would have put on more songs but grooveshark doesn't have all of the songs that I listen to. By the way if you listen to Under Pressure by Logic it's not the first part of the song that helped me, it's the second part when he's talking about all of his family struggles.

Died A Slave

I wish I could fly away and still carry all of the pain that I carry with my weight. I try to stay humble but the world is a jungle I try to stay out of the rumble but If I don't I'll tumble. I feel like I'm in an arena full of hyenas every time I get an idea I try to fight for you I'm afraid they're going to steal you this is why I leave you because I wouldn't want you to help heave these things that are all under my sleeves. You were my nicotine an addiction that could be lit up with kerosene. I stopped doing the bad because I thought that I had a chance but I guess that's because when I took my first glance I was stuck in a state of trance. I thought that your brilliance would be the difference that can finally change my resilience. That smile that can help billions. But I was wrong and now these faces in the hall feel likes it's lifelong I wish I was strong I wish I belonged. But now you see these eyes that are now wise but still tries to deny all of his allies that left with a disguise. You helped me with my vision to stay away from prison because you thought I cold helped be risen. But I feel like I have more enemies that are 100 steps ahead of me trying to take away my identity. I feel like you're deprave and that's how you got me to be your slave and that will end up me being in my grave.

Bricks

We were all tough like bricks but then we start to break once we reach our peak. That's what happens when we can't predict the next thing that's about to start conflict. When the weather becomes a displeasure we need to stick together because things get better. But what happens when we fall apart what happens to our heart will we get a fresh start or will we depart. WE go through all of these stages but how many ages will we see fall until we become faded.

HIgh School

For some people the school is full of predators but there is no creditor because it's been like that since as long as I can remember. A lot of students are set up as warriors because they're setting up barriers and they're not sure if they can take another quarter because they've had enough of they're superiors or maybe its some set of euphoria. They just want to be left alone so there's no need to pick a bone because we're all just precious stones. It's our ego that makes the decision now and it can affect our precision and can one day lead us to treason. What happened to our innocence when we didn't act all different I guess that changed in an instant when our souls were splitting and not all of us could reach the distant whether it was because some of us have different pigment or some of us need assistance. I guess that's what we get for not being consistent. Why do people abandon in high school we're not branded just because we have different passions doesn't mean you can leave another person stranded. All of us can relate because we're all in that teenage state where we deflate because the girl or guy update their relationship status yes you just lost some more chances but don't worry you still have your life and that's made of platinum. So let's keep the peace no need for anyone to fall beneath because we all know what that can lead to. But I came to tell you that I've been through all of this but there's no leash on me you got it capisce high school can't defeat me because I don't want more increase in my friends that are already decease because I hate to see things repeat.

All Around Me (Past Me)

I feel my bones start to wither every time that temptation gets closer. But now I'm starting to breakdown and surrender. Because nothing ever lasts forever so why do I need to have my life together when all I hear are my friends screaming and repeating let's start stealing and sooner or later it will turn to beating and cheating so now I'm sweating because I did it again and so now I'm fleeing. All I can remember is me looking over myself rotting, bleeding hoping that the paramedics can somehow save me let me know. Because I know that's where the future me will end up once he reaches his plateau but luckily I learned to let go and forgo the past that consumed me many ages ago. But now the flow and rhymes can be used as a weapon because the old me was injected with venom and started to act like a felon who's life is filled with aggression and suppression. I don't need to lie because I've looked into the sky and realized the real lies that surrounds my blind eyes because I could still die. Now audience listen to me please because this might be the last thing you hear from me. All around me I see murder more murder and homicide in the ghettos but why can't we just say hello, instead of killing because we all know that we'll end up on skid row. Now look at these demons surround me who are trying to bound me. They're all circling around me I feel myself getting closer to the burial ground. But now I start to glow and hope that I can get to Heaven. Now I feel invincible more visual each day I get closer to my destiny people keep testing me but that's because half of the time they're full of jealousy not my fault if I grew up in peasantry and I wanted to get out of that life dreadfully. Now people want to be in my life desperately but that's because their mind is full of perplexity. I'm just living my life until I leave a legacy.

Love

Love is like a fire. Love is something that people desire. But most people retire early because they can never acquire Love. Love is like a fire because it first needs to be ignited but most people are frightened to fall in Love because it's often lopsided. No such thing as love at first sight for me because every time it happens nothing ends up right. I think love expands just like fire and you can't understand why your head is all jammed. Me personally I'm trying to love myself before I love somebody else because I know someday my feelings will melt. But I'm not looking for love because love is a dove that's in the sky always fly and knows the right time when to land on my hand and I'm ready to be found. Whenever I think of love my head starts to twirl and I have to hurl, because that's when the old romantic starts to unfurl. I can't contain it, I can't explain it, My brain needs it, just like novacane, but I'm scared if I open up my heart will go down the drain. It's in our veins but we need to ascertain the truth of Love.

Old Friends

Not going to lie my old friends will probably end up in the pen because they follow the trend and don't listen to their brain which well end up in a dead end. I'm glad for change but yes it feels strange but it's better than being in some stupid firing range full of cops and gangs. I know while they're all out on the grind I'm here working for a dime because my life strives for someones spare time. They be selling the "candy" and singing a shanty thinking how dandy and how happy that we are now living grandly. But in reality they're just a bunch of old vigilantes trying to be manly. I don't know if I've changed or if they've changed, if they are doing it for the fame and thinking it's all some sort of game. But one day it'll all go down the drain. But once friends always friends I just hope one day they'll be cleansed. They'll come to realization that they're domination is ruining kids education we're supposed to be saving the children scratch that save the billions so people don't come home to another lost civilian. The killings are blinding the brilliance of my old familiar rebellion. They're decisions are tripping because they didn't have the same vision that I did. Or have any supervision teach them wisdom on why not to end up in prison. I hope one day they won't meet their demise because in their eyes you can see their disguise that they aligned. Once they're out of it they can see the noble prize of life and despite the things they've done the Lord is there to advise. I just hope that the last time I saw you guys, that wasn't the last goodbye.

Robots

Look at the human race taken out of place by these things called "Robots." That's just a bunch of bogus we did this to ourselves after the age of twelve when we all got cell phones taking control of our bones we're now out of the zone looking through the unknown. We look through facebook and instagram in awe but to me it's all one big scam that's full of crammed fake people. It's hurt us when someone makes a big fuss on twitter and causes a bigger ripper in people's friendship it's practically hitler. It gives me the shivers that, that could be your sister that they're making the designated hitter. It brings out the sinner in us because we'll do anything to protect our family. It's a new way of bullying causing savagery it's not just an imagery, It's giving me anxiety because one day tragedy will hit. Then no one laughs when they're joke turns into smoke. So I don't care for technology because it's constantly breaking our generosity and what we live for. We change who we are just to set our bar higher in the already blinded popularity stars or scars. No matter what we all have scars but these "Robots" are tearing us down. We're all meant for great things so let's act like Kings and put on our wings because "The Sky's the Limit That's What They Told The Fu**** Fool, Let's Disguise The Limit And Aim For                                                                                 The
                                                            Sun And 
                                                                          Moon."

#LongLiveSteelo