Knock Tha Hustle

We were going Mobb deep
Haven't had any sleep
Don't remember what it's like to dream
Pills to get away what you feel
Obsessed with other people's real
Keep messing with me
There will be nothing left of me
Just like your ecstasy
Life is getting the best of me
Friendship or a future casualty
I promise
People better be cautious
Cause we're having nobody's nonsense
We've been lost since
The first day we got in
Brought sin
Caught slip
Decided to stop tripping
Change my living
Start giving
Fake friends
Aren't around when the paper ends
They try to come back to make amends
But that's because they realize you can lend
I was stuck in your chains
Before I decided to change
Got me looking in the mirror thinking it's in me I'll always be the same
You didn't appreciate my decision
That's why you left me without any thinking
You're stuck out there in the hustle
While I'm here figuring out how to be normal
Man it's one big puzzle
See you from time to time purposely step on the puddle
You left me in the jungle
But I'm still ready for any rumble
Your making it more of a struggle
To stop drinking out of this beer nozzle
Bunch of Imposters
I know that the cops got ya
But don't call me cause you're not on my roster
I love life ever since I dropped ya
I'm not that same monster
I see now from the Holy Water
Came out of my depression
To help anyone with resentment
Or doubts to go back to regression
Cause I know how it is with all the different questions
Hope one day my homies learned their lesson
We don't need to do things for attention
No matter what they're can always be a correction
I'll still be here when you need protection
Because I know what it's like to go through rejection

Bother

You may have nice things
But doesn't mean you're happy underneath
You question why you exist
You want to quit
Parents make sure to always persist
Too much pressure now you see why you're little kid
Has now become an A-ddict
What happens when you lose them will you be stuck in an abyss
Some people like to act tough
But we're all going through something rough
That's what makes us one
But it's hard for us to show each other love
I remember all the different hypocrites
Now I'm not judging but this is what the difference is
They never lived this stitch
Acting like somebody they're not is how they get their attention with
Running from my problems is what kept me a distant kid
But at least I accept it cause growing up I never got one of those certificates
But that's how reality is
I remember too many kids tried to keep it real
Bullying other kids imagine how they feel
Because of you maybe one day they might not be here
I've lost a lot of friends my heart ain't clear
Bullying is the reason why a lot of kids are in fear
It makes me wonder if maybe my time is almost here
Imagine what they're parents feel like each year
Some people rely to much on popularity
And it kind of scares me
I made a lot of friends but that never really mattered to me
Cause only a couple of them stand with me
The rest are all mad at me
What's the point once you get to college
They'll never be calling
Only when they're falling
Stay true to yourself that's the best outing
Sometimes I wonder why I even bother
But I probably got it from my father
Nobody ever accepts my help why even offer
The farther you keep swimming
The harder it's going to be to keep kicking
Doing things on your own isn't winning
You should make the choice that's willing
Cause we all need a new beginning.

I pray the Lord my soul to take

I've been working hard
I've been searching for God

We're all flowers that started from the bottom
Some just blossom early
While the rest of us are still waiting for pollen
Hoping that we won't be forgotten
This place feels like one big sodom.
My parents tell me we need to be more like a family
How can we do that whenever I'm near the house my heart beats rapidly
Cause I know whenever I'll fall no one would be there to catch me
They wonder why I don't show any apathy.
Why is it that my parents called me a disgrace
To my face did they not think
That I'm just trying to get out of this place.
How come I'm always caught in the middle
How come life feels like some big riddle
Why isn't it more simple.
What I learned from tv shows was to fall in love and get lost
And to always keep reaching for the stars
But many of us are scared of the future
But we're running from our past
It seems like whenever we try it just never lasts
Sometimes you feel like becoming an outkast.

I've been working hard
I've been searching for God

Now I know why my dad is so angry
And why he always has to blame me
But whatever cause he was never there for me
But I don't tell him that
Because that's when he thinks he's in combat.
I only see my dad an hour a day
Maybe if he can see through my eyes and I can show him the replays of my childhood
Then he'll know that I'm grateful of him showing me at an early age this thing called Manhood. Sundays it feels like a stranger is eating dinner
Seems like now I lost that father figure
The one that helped me take out my first splinter
Does he remember when he told me not to be a quitter
And that you have to work everyday if you want to become a winner.
Do you remember when you told me to respect women
I still do that every hour every minute.
Because I don't want them to think of the wrong image.
You were the one that told me everyday don't do drugs
Because if I do it my social life will be done
And the only way I'll see the day of light is if I run.
I took all of your yelling
And yes this is starting to get overwhelming
Does this face look like it's still caring
Because right now it feels like i'm running
And there's no way that you're begging
Will be helping.
Try coming to my games
Maybe that will help these situations change
Oh you have work I see now what a shame
Start talking to me again when i'm not to blame.

I've been working hard
I've been searching for God
Seems like everyday I see all of my different flaws.

I can tell my mom's stressing
I just hope she doesn't end up with depression
Maybe she needs a refreshment
That she's the best that God has sent us.
I wish I could tell her that but I've been answering lesser and lesser
Because I know I don't make things better
I gave them my effort
I feel like I'm under pressure
I never kept things together
My brother was always the one that's been more clever.
But Mom you're the one I don't want to disappoint.
Because you're the one that helped me with my way point.
Mom I'm scared to tell you that I'm not going to college
I know how you tell me knowledge
Is important but I'm here to tell you that this world isn't flawless
Why do you think so many of our brothers and sisters have fallen.
I know that I have the grades
I know I have that GPA
But I don't have the act score that will get me away.
Cause some kid decided to be discreet
And cheat off me
And now we both sit here in defeat.  
I just hope that you believe
That whatever I do you'll know I'll achieve
You just have to let me be released
I'm not that kid anymore that was running from the police.

I've been working hard
I've been searching for God
Seems like everyday I see all of my different flaws
Maybe one day all of these claws
Will turn into applause
And then we can all get along.

Listen family I'm so sorry that I've been distant
I know that my timing has been inconsistent
Everything feels so different
I know most of the time I've been resilient
But maybe one day you'll see how this world is so twisted.

I'm barely getting rid of the depression that sucks with me ever since I was an adolescent 
My thoughts were in a whirl
I started seeing a new girl
But it all fell through what a world.
That's why my friends were my family
Because we've all been through tragedy.
But now I look to my left and see my brothers selling drugs
While I look to my right and see my sisters hooking up with thugs.
It's been 2 years that I've been clean
Now I know what it's like to not be a fiend.
The last time I saw them they slugged me
They didn't recognize me they almost mugged me.
Now you see why all the things I'm pursuing
All the things that I am doing
Because I see now all the things that I am losing.
I'm a man on a mission
Nothing can stop this ambition
This new life has become my addiction
The Lord has helped me with my vision
I see now all the things I've done has been forgiven.
These are for the ones that I love the ones that I miss
I'll be here if you ever want to reminisce
Or whenever you want to call it quits
I know that it's hard to commit
But don't worry I'll be here to assist
Then you'll see the light
That shines so bright
To help you get through the night
And will help you reach new heights.
Now you've seen that I've grown
Hopefully sooner than later will be known
Because not everything is written in stone
Right now I'm just trying to defy all odds.
And with God on my side
I know that everything will be alright.


I've been working hard
I've been searching for God
Seems like everyday I see all of my different flaws
Maybe one day all of these claws
Will turn into applause
And then we can all get along.

Now I lay me down to sleep 

I pray the Lord my soul to keep.

Faces in the hall

You walk down the halls and sometimes you feel like they can talk. A lot of people don't feel safe it feels like high school is all just one big game. Now you see why I always pop my headphones in because I know what it's like to be left alone. When the halls talk they won't stop like an alarm clock no matter how far you walk there's nothing that you can do to help you block all of the different tick tocks. This school has turned so see through but what can we do. All of these different cliques is what destroys friendships. Some try to fit in some don't give in. I don't fit in any groups and no I won't change my looks. I'd rather be me then act how I was back when I was thirteen. You don't need everyone's approval. You need the ones that were always there for you when life was so crucial. If you don't have anyone fine but remember you still have yourself and there's no such thing as a life that's better than yours.

Heart's gone

Do you ever feel like your hearts gone or feel like it's been hit by a batton and now it just throbs and now you're asking God when will this ever stop. Some people go the same route and it gives them doubt feel like whenever they're around them they can never sprout turns out this happens day in day out. They decide to change for something that's a little strange. You feel like you're finally accepted except it was all deception now you've learned a lesson and now full of resentment. But it's hard because if you like someone it's usually homecoming queen vs the ugly duckling. Feels like love is always struggling how troubling. Your hearts hard to listen to because when you like someone you go into a war zone with no gun you don't know if you should keep chasing or just run. The heart is confusing because it's either amusing or it causes bruising. It hurts like a paper cut you forget it's there but it'll come back so beware because it's not afraid to show you where.

Counterclockwise

I remember thinking how everyone is moving forward.
I wanted to keep going backwards. I know living in the past is a hazard
but it's a big factor
to help you see what really matters.
I remember being a loner people
telling me to grow up
but let me show ya
that long ago that I was one of those people that chased after the status quo
and although I chased after this I still felt like sometimes it was a game show.
People walking forward I'm going back home.
They say one man's trash is another man's treasure
I couldn't answer any better
except the man gathering the treasure
is a bit more clever
cause even though he has lesser
it still gives him pleasure
because he knows that God will love him forever.
I remember thinking back then nothing was the limit
and how slow a minute was
and how high my spirit was.
I see now people still take things for granted
but remember all the things you were handed
because I remember all the things I ever wanted
but never got it
because I felt like everything I ever got never lasted.
I notice now before everyone had money there was love
and before the money it was tough
but why is it for some it's never enough.
Or why is it when people get money
the world starts to get ugly
and people start coming to their old buddy
because they feel hungry.
You see guys in high school pimping
thinking that they're winning
but life will come back around hitting
just give it time because the clock is always ticking.
Back then somebody liked you they thought they had cooties
but as you grow up you start to see the beauty.
But some people take advantage
I wouldn't know cause I'm mostly a romantic
who's just average
not very attractive
but I still learned how to manage.
Think about if all the life you choices you made were the opposite.
I know that my life wouldn't be anything near positive.

I used to wonder what it feel like
But now, I know, achieved the goal
I ran the race I won the gold
I used to wonder what it feel like
You can really do anything.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oJAUMIvTXF4

In remembrance of me

I remember chasing the ice cream trucks.
I remember being a little kid now i'm off making bucks.
I remember the first time my dad taught me how to tie my shoes.
I remember every Sunday with the family and our barbecues.
I remember watching the WWE with my brother.
I remember the first time I touched a basketball.
I remember going to the pool and can only do cannonballs.
I remember thinking that I'll end up as a pro baller.
I remember getting in fights and being a brawler.
I remember how I used to have a really bad stutter.
I remember moving from house to house.
I remember running away not thinking and people wondering where was my whereabouts.
I remember when we played Zelda on Nintendo 64.
I remember when we blasted our stereo how I wish I can relive that some more.
I remember being babysat by my great grandma.
I remember being a maniac and never cared for my asthma.
I remember the first time I learned how to ride a bike.
I remember meeting my friends and how we were so alike.
I remember being called Tank cause I was so chubby.
I remember watching boomerang and always learning from bugs bunny.
I remember always watching Allen Iverson against Kobe Bryant.
I remember when things were always silent.
I remember my teachers always acting like tyrants.
I remember moving to Utah.
I remember when I met my best friend.
I remember when I got sick in 5th grade and I couldn't attend.
I remember when Jr. High school started.
I remember all my friends leaving me I thought they were so heartless.
I remember getting in my last fight.
I remember thinking what's wrong or right.
I remember hanging out with my dad and flying our kite.
I remember my mom teaching me how to always be polite.
I remember my dad telling me to never disrespect women.
I remember losing my first friend but I knew he was going to Heaven.
I remember the sunshine.
I remember when life was so divine.
I remember being too nervous to talk to a girl in high school.
I remember thinking how she was such a jewel.
I remember actually talking to her in Jr. year.
I remember thinking that she would never reappear.
I remember being alone.
I remember the stupid things I did just to be known.
I remember the first time I was offered weed.
I remember how cool I thought I seemed.
I remember turning my friend down.
I remember him telling me that he I thought I was a clown.
I remember seeing this girl at the gym yes at the gym. (this is my blog so I get to say whatever.)
I remember everyday I used to see her wanting to say something.
I remember coming home after seeing her suffering.
I remember the day that she stopped coming.
I remember how we always said hi to each other but nothing else.
I remember when I saw her again.
I remember thinking how the odds were against me.
I remember accidentally asking if she my buddies brother.
I remember seeing her laughter.
I remember taking her on a date.
I remember asking her to my first prom face to face.
I remember thinking that finally things are going my way.

A tale of 2 cities

This is a tale of 2 cities
Both are revered to me as great cities
While one city helped me face anything gritty
The other helped me start a new series.
While I lost some
I knew I couldn't succumb
To whatever may come because life still goes on. Back then I thought that happiness was temporary always has been
And I thought sadness would never end.
I kept asking questions
Hoping to get lessons
And fix these imperfections
And then maybe in the mirror I'll hopefully see different facial expressions.
I knew I could only a trust a few
Because some couldn't come through I didn't know who to look to
Sometimes I wish I can undo
And pursue
Something that will help me pay the dues
Sometimes it feels like deja vu
But that's just my point of view.
But that was in the past
If it was played in a movie everything would go by so fast
Put me in a art show you can see the different contrast.
That was good old Long Beach California
Which was filled with many people having insomnia
And smoking marijuana
But luckily my momma
Told me I didn't need that to find nirvana.
But my friends went the opposite
Cause instead of drinking tap water out of the faucet
They decided they wanted to make a profit
I told them there were different options
We didn't have to be those people with heaters in our pockets
They said they were scared for their families they needed to walk around with confidence
And make sure everybody knew that if they did anything there would be consequences.
But I see them now they're keeping people from starving
But drugs is what they're farming
But they still haven't done any harming.
The present
Is what helped me stop living life like a peasant
Be grateful for what i'm given
But I didn't know how Utah was going to help me with the second segment
Of my story
Well maybe it'll help me chase for glory.

Shoes

My shoes I can tell which one are my shoes because they're always torn I bet that they wish they could be returned. My shoes have been through abuse because they have been reuse. I haven't had brand new shoes in awhile so my shoes are always out of style but it doesn't mean I don't have to smile because it's not like there's a trial for bad shoe attire. If I was judged on appearance then I should go give my clothes back to clearance sales like good riddance. But as long as they get me the distance then I don't care cause I know that's business. I get shoes rarely because I know how much they vary it's always changing so I don't care for some fad or just to look rad everyone just has to live life glad.

Like Me

This is my second intro
because back then I wasn't look up to as a hero.
I was that family member that was seen as going nowhere
the friend that had a lot of talent but was still considered a zero.
Each day felt like a seesaw somedays were up some were down
maybe it was this town
that made my expression frown.
Maybe it was the friends I chose
the one that kept me on my toes whenever we were going to go get clothes
because I know how they like to impose.
But that's why I took advantage
and decided to take my damage
and vanish.
I didn't know what it was like to forfeit
leave the horses
that helped keep me out the coffin.
I knew that it was abrupt
but that's because I heard something from above that this was enough
find a new love
and that when you look at yourself in the mirror you won't see yourself in disgust.
All we wanted to be was kings
we knew we were young but all we needed were the rings
in order for us to have everything.
This is escape 101
for all the kids that are afraid and feel like five hundred tons
it's okay to run.
This is for all the kids like me all the kids that were tired like me
all the kids that were inspired like me
all the kids that felt like an outsider like me
all the kids that are like me Jesse Sedano. Extortion was who I was not who I am anymore because God came knocking on my door
and of course there was no way I was going to ignore.
I changed my life for the better
because everyday I felt under pressure
but now I know I'm under God's shelter.
I'm still trying to chase my dreams
because one day I'm going to get my family out of this scene.
My family is looking up to me
and there's no way we're going back to poverty
it doesn't matter if I grew up as a minority
I know what is my priority
and one day I'll also give back to my community. This is my life my story
and I know that I have family and friends that will always support me. -Jesse Sedano the kid that always shows up late to class.

Hazeus View

Hey Jesus will my friends ever see you through their Hazeus will they ever see the angel that helped their friend become faithful. How come they keep changing I personally need some explaining because their life is like some war painting I wonder how many of them are still remaining. The last I heard was that another one was gone but Lord I've been trying to hold on. It's hard to wake up to dawn and remember all the times that we were just little prawns doing small time cons not knowing what we were doing was so wrong. Please Jesus help them see through their hazeus. I know that their mind is clouded but show them that you're around give them time like you gave me sooner or later they'll hear the bells chime. They'll find true love once they check the rhyme. They just need time to figure out their problems so then they can blossom because when they were growing up they didn't have any role models. Help them look into the stars and see what's going on upstairs so they know that there's something to look forward to. They need you to help keep them uplifting and comforting rather than them drifting. All they ever wanted was for someone to be there for them but looks like the drugs helped them change and lead them to the gangs. If Heaven was a mile away would you still live life gray or would you run today because I know I wouldn't be able to stay in a world that has no escape.

Experiment

Chercher à celle de haute qualité, tout le monde veut être affichée comme jamais peur. Mais ce est une révision à la baisse parce que ce est un jeu qui ne devrait jamais être joué. Ils se détournent de leurs problèmes pour les bouteilles de toxines jusqu'à leur connaissance est allé jusqu'à l'automne prochain. Trouver quelqu'un qui vous aidera, profiter parce que les amis vont et viennent comme bagages. Soyez heureux. Soyez bavard. Soyez drôle. Soyez bâclée être quelque chose qui vous rend heureux parce que cette chose qui fait mal si mal peut se terminer rapidement.

Piece Of Mind

Why is it my dad has to be working 40+ hours a week why is it I grew up weak. Why couldn't I have a stay at home mom a mom that I can applaud whenever she can help keep me warm. The only person watching me was my brother but he'd rather be with other kids for the summer but he has to take care of his baby brother. Both parents anonymous but they promised that this would help give me confidence. But how was I supposed to believe that when every day there's new arguments in our apartments. Why is it we worked so much but yet life was still tough I guess that's what we get for not giving up. I guess that reflected on me at school because they thought of me as a distraction they should've put a caution sign on me because of all of my stupid actions but that's because I felt abandoned. Kicked out of school for not listening to the rules but I'm still holding on. Why could't my dad help me with sports or help me with life's different course because everyday I feel like it's getting worse. 5th grade I felt stray detention everyday had to write in the dictionary just to participate. It's cause I didn't put in enough effort something I will regret forever but it's something that I think of lesser. This is my piece of mind I was never designed for something like this so I need to rewind and stop walking around so blind. I realize this is reality this is all part of humanity what some people think as normality I think of my family because sometimes we live unhappily. This piece of mind helps give me peace of mind cause I know how I don't want to be with my family in the future.

My deepest fear

So i'm doing this thing where each song fits the blog so evidence- chase the clouds away is going to fit this song and then Piece of Mind by Joey Bada$$ is going to fit my next blog My deepest fear is when my mind isn't clear and my social anxiety takes over my reality. What happened to me I used to try to become friends with everyone but I guess that's because several of them when into Heaven. I just listen to my music in classes because i'm afraid that they're laughing at my fashion but I lose multiple chances to meet new people because my seat belt is already fasten. There are days where I think of giving into weed because sometimes I feel like it's something I need something that will help me feel free. I'm scared of going into work and finding out that I lost another one of my friends because any day now they can meet their end but I know that they've amends. They've accepted fate I wish I can debate but they'll soon reach their estate. I'm afraid to go home it's no rome but it's where my friends and I roll. Family is always arguing with each other it's like thunder no wonder why I always shutter. I'm afraid that I'll mess up with this new girl because when I'm with her my head starts to twirl I feel like i'm in a different world. I hope I don't become nervous oh I know she sees me squirmish but she thinks I'm a great person. I've never felt this way but I shouldn't get my hopes up because she can play with me like a jump rope. But I should be happy because I'm alive i'm living life everyday I survive. I must've chased the dark clouds away it's another day that I don't feel astray because the more I prey I know it'll be a good day. So I shouldn't complain because I'm not afraid I've learned to embrace and erase the mistakes that I used to display.

Crooked Smile

At first I couldn't stand myself but the beauty evened out the beast

 and now I hollow out the streets. I love my crooked smile 

because it shows all of my life style

 all the trials

 that I went through for awhile.

 To all the flawed 

people don't worry even those with those perfect smiles are all frauds

 but they're just better at hiding it then we are.

 It's better to be crooked

 and an open booklet

 because those that are wounded

 can't accept the rugged looking.

 I'm not insecure I'm just shy

 I'm one of those guys 

that girls just run by

 the one that can never supply

 that rich life

 but I do hope that one day I'll have a wife.

 But till then I'll just be living

 and forgiving because i'm missing

 all those kids that were practically my siblings 

but there's beauty in the struggle 

because even though they're in the hustle

 they're still figuring out the puzzle. 

That's when i'll be living cool calm collect 

full of content. 

But I can't help but doubt 

because there's always different routes 

I just hope that they don't succumb to the drought. 

Be happy with your imperfection

 because that's a collection 

of the rejection

 that happened throughout your adolescence.

 It gets better each time you accept it.

This is where I got the idea for this blog but to me this isn't really a blog to me anymore it's more like songs for me now.

Life The Biggest Troll

"It's the game of life. Do I win or do I lose? One day they're gonna shut the game down. I gotta have as much fun and go around the board as many times as I can before it's my turn to leave." -Tupac Shakur “We wouldn't ask why a rose that grew from the concrete for having damaged petals, in turn, we would all celebrate its tenacity, we would all love its will to reach the sun, well, we are the roses, this is the concrete and these are my damaged petals, don't ask me why, thank god, and ask me how” ― Tupac Shakur LIfe the biggest troll over time it takes a toll because you feel like you don't have control it can lead you through a black hole and can one day take that innocent soul. It doesn't matter who we are we all go through similar struggles it doesn't mean we have to go through that dark tunnel alone that's full of our troubles. When we the roses grew from the concrete it doesn't mean that we defeated what came from beneath we need to keep pushing because this world is still full of deceit. WE need to believe that we can succeed. I don't want to feel sadness but yet that's life it comes with different situations that everyone feels across the nations I wish I can chase them but I have to be patient. But of course that's life. You learn from your biggest mistakes when you're in pain or coming up into the real world with damaged petals but I guess that's what makes us special. Is our damaged petals because they can heal because then after everything that's happened. You can feel, You are alive you need to arise like sunrise you've survived don't be surprised tonight isn't the last time that you say goodbye.

Untitled

Today I didn't really know what to write mostly cause I've been confused with everything that's been happening lately. But today was a little different. Today was the first day that I didn't have work in a month I was asleep for 15 hours. But today I remembered all the friends that I have just recently lost and I couldn't handle it. That's why this post is mostly just the new songs that I put on today to help people get though tough times or the battle that they are fighting with themselves. The very first song is what helped me when my friend Brandon passed away. I would have put on more songs but grooveshark doesn't have all of the songs that I listen to. By the way if you listen to Under Pressure by Logic it's not the first part of the song that helped me, it's the second part when he's talking about all of his family struggles.

Died A Slave

I wish I could fly away and still carry all of the pain that I carry with my weight. I try to stay humble but the world is a jungle I try to stay out of the rumble but If I don't I'll tumble. I feel like I'm in an arena full of hyenas every time I get an idea I try to fight for you I'm afraid they're going to steal you this is why I leave you because I wouldn't want you to help heave these things that are all under my sleeves. You were my nicotine an addiction that could be lit up with kerosene. I stopped doing the bad because I thought that I had a chance but I guess that's because when I took my first glance I was stuck in a state of trance. I thought that your brilliance would be the difference that can finally change my resilience. That smile that can help billions. But I was wrong and now these faces in the hall feel likes it's lifelong I wish I was strong I wish I belonged. But now you see these eyes that are now wise but still tries to deny all of his allies that left with a disguise. You helped me with my vision to stay away from prison because you thought I cold helped be risen. But I feel like I have more enemies that are 100 steps ahead of me trying to take away my identity. I feel like you're deprave and that's how you got me to be your slave and that will end up me being in my grave.

Bricks

We were all tough like bricks but then we start to break once we reach our peak. That's what happens when we can't predict the next thing that's about to start conflict. When the weather becomes a displeasure we need to stick together because things get better. But what happens when we fall apart what happens to our heart will we get a fresh start or will we depart. WE go through all of these stages but how many ages will we see fall until we become faded.

HIgh School

For some people the school is full of predators but there is no creditor because it's been like that since as long as I can remember. A lot of students are set up as warriors because they're setting up barriers and they're not sure if they can take another quarter because they've had enough of they're superiors or maybe its some set of euphoria. They just want to be left alone so there's no need to pick a bone because we're all just precious stones. It's our ego that makes the decision now and it can affect our precision and can one day lead us to treason. What happened to our innocence when we didn't act all different I guess that changed in an instant when our souls were splitting and not all of us could reach the distant whether it was because some of us have different pigment or some of us need assistance. I guess that's what we get for not being consistent. Why do people abandon in high school we're not branded just because we have different passions doesn't mean you can leave another person stranded. All of us can relate because we're all in that teenage state where we deflate because the girl or guy update their relationship status yes you just lost some more chances but don't worry you still have your life and that's made of platinum. So let's keep the peace no need for anyone to fall beneath because we all know what that can lead to. But I came to tell you that I've been through all of this but there's no leash on me you got it capisce high school can't defeat me because I don't want more increase in my friends that are already decease because I hate to see things repeat.

All Around Me (Past Me)

I feel my bones start to wither every time that temptation gets closer. But now I'm starting to breakdown and surrender. Because nothing ever lasts forever so why do I need to have my life together when all I hear are my friends screaming and repeating let's start stealing and sooner or later it will turn to beating and cheating so now I'm sweating because I did it again and so now I'm fleeing. All I can remember is me looking over myself rotting, bleeding hoping that the paramedics can somehow save me let me know. Because I know that's where the future me will end up once he reaches his plateau but luckily I learned to let go and forgo the past that consumed me many ages ago. But now the flow and rhymes can be used as a weapon because the old me was injected with venom and started to act like a felon who's life is filled with aggression and suppression. I don't need to lie because I've looked into the sky and realized the real lies that surrounds my blind eyes because I could still die. Now audience listen to me please because this might be the last thing you hear from me. All around me I see murder more murder and homicide in the ghettos but why can't we just say hello, instead of killing because we all know that we'll end up on skid row. Now look at these demons surround me who are trying to bound me. They're all circling around me I feel myself getting closer to the burial ground. But now I start to glow and hope that I can get to Heaven. Now I feel invincible more visual each day I get closer to my destiny people keep testing me but that's because half of the time they're full of jealousy not my fault if I grew up in peasantry and I wanted to get out of that life dreadfully. Now people want to be in my life desperately but that's because their mind is full of perplexity. I'm just living my life until I leave a legacy.

Love

Love is like a fire. Love is something that people desire. But most people retire early because they can never acquire Love. Love is like a fire because it first needs to be ignited but most people are frightened to fall in Love because it's often lopsided. No such thing as love at first sight for me because every time it happens nothing ends up right. I think love expands just like fire and you can't understand why your head is all jammed. Me personally I'm trying to love myself before I love somebody else because I know someday my feelings will melt. But I'm not looking for love because love is a dove that's in the sky always fly and knows the right time when to land on my hand and I'm ready to be found. Whenever I think of love my head starts to twirl and I have to hurl, because that's when the old romantic starts to unfurl. I can't contain it, I can't explain it, My brain needs it, just like novacane, but I'm scared if I open up my heart will go down the drain. It's in our veins but we need to ascertain the truth of Love.

Old Friends

Not going to lie my old friends will probably end up in the pen because they follow the trend and don't listen to their brain which well end up in a dead end. I'm glad for change but yes it feels strange but it's better than being in some stupid firing range full of cops and gangs. I know while they're all out on the grind I'm here working for a dime because my life strives for someones spare time. They be selling the "candy" and singing a shanty thinking how dandy and how happy that we are now living grandly. But in reality they're just a bunch of old vigilantes trying to be manly. I don't know if I've changed or if they've changed, if they are doing it for the fame and thinking it's all some sort of game. But one day it'll all go down the drain. But once friends always friends I just hope one day they'll be cleansed. They'll come to realization that they're domination is ruining kids education we're supposed to be saving the children scratch that save the billions so people don't come home to another lost civilian. The killings are blinding the brilliance of my old familiar rebellion. They're decisions are tripping because they didn't have the same vision that I did. Or have any supervision teach them wisdom on why not to end up in prison. I hope one day they won't meet their demise because in their eyes you can see their disguise that they aligned. Once they're out of it they can see the noble prize of life and despite the things they've done the Lord is there to advise. I just hope that the last time I saw you guys, that wasn't the last goodbye.

Robots

Look at the human race taken out of place by these things called "Robots." That's just a bunch of bogus we did this to ourselves after the age of twelve when we all got cell phones taking control of our bones we're now out of the zone looking through the unknown. We look through facebook and instagram in awe but to me it's all one big scam that's full of crammed fake people. It's hurt us when someone makes a big fuss on twitter and causes a bigger ripper in people's friendship it's practically hitler. It gives me the shivers that, that could be your sister that they're making the designated hitter. It brings out the sinner in us because we'll do anything to protect our family. It's a new way of bullying causing savagery it's not just an imagery, It's giving me anxiety because one day tragedy will hit. Then no one laughs when they're joke turns into smoke. So I don't care for technology because it's constantly breaking our generosity and what we live for. We change who we are just to set our bar higher in the already blinded popularity stars or scars. No matter what we all have scars but these "Robots" are tearing us down. We're all meant for great things so let's act like Kings and put on our wings because "The Sky's the Limit That's What They Told The Fu**** Fool, Let's Disguise The Limit And Aim For                                                                                 The
                                                            Sun And 
                                                                          Moon."

#LongLiveSteelo

First Time Stealing

The first time I ever stole

There I was looking at the manager with my dilated pupils thinking am I changing the future, hoping that God is still with ya. Will I hate ya be the last thing I say to my family and wondering if they still want me. I'm not sure if this will be my first or last victim because I know if I get caught my name will forever be in the system. I only did this just to get an income not to be convicted. I can feel him looking every time that I start to go crooked. My legs start to feel like pudding, I know the clock is ticking but I feel like puking. I grab the chips and soda and I can tell this is the beginning of a new casanova. I run but I blank at the door my conscience comes in. My conscience tells me that this isn't honest you have different options you don't have to live life with so many different consequences. But now guilty conscience is a part of this and tells me that you shouldn't take caution you'll do this oh so little often and to stop with all of this nonsense because you're starting to feel nauseous. Now I snap back to reality thinking how long was I in that mental spirituality. I guess I blacked out when I was running because I don't remember any of that liberality but this will be kept all in confidentiality. I said to myself that was the last time I ever do something so irrational I'm never going to let that become a natural thing. But that was all just the start of a new animal named Extortion

Colors

Red is meant for love but all I see is kids getting shoved. But it's also meant for aggression that's why you see so many kids caught with possession because they need a way to get out of this so-called perfection but give everyone attention and maybe it can help someone go the right direction. You see love losing so much because it's starting to lose its dove. While aggression is winning just like the great depression.

Orange is meant for happiness but it also means the fall because the leaves are turning orange and about to drop. But when they drop they leave a shortage of knowledge or can leave storage full of carnage. But when they fall I know that it is a call from God. To live my life full of happiness instead of blackness in my thoughts because i'm still unwinding all of the thoughts.

Yellow is when I start to feel mellow and pretend that I live like a pharaoh. It keeps our mind relaxed and not think about all the times we felt trapped. but perhaps it means that we are about or relapse and attack the next upper class that we attract.

Green oh how I hate this color. It reminds of me C.R.E.A.M. if you don't what that means then you should listen to the WU. Greens reminds me of when I was chasing paper and I planned to scheme on the next teen just to get something to eat. It reminds me of the thing I struggle with money so don't underestimate me because all of this was for my family. Believe me this wasn't all for vanity so hopefully in the future somebody will understand me.

Blue reminds me of my favorite Hip Hop artists Blu who kept me true and helped me find a way to undo all the things that I used to do and run into God which was long overdo. I guess that's why Blue is color of trust and that's why I brushed off the bad and readjust. But just like Red and his alternate it's supposed to show wisdom but yet you see gangs represent just for fearsome.

Intro

Extortion is who I was not who I am now. It was just distortion.

But don't take caution because it was back when I was taking action not listening to my conscience hoping to make a fortune.

But that's just my old portrait. This is my story that went awry.

But now I'm listening to the melody living life blessedly turning away from the old felonies. Hoping to leave a legacy.

This is my intro with a little bit of info to my life. So come join me to find out the rest of the story.