Like Me

This is my second intro
because back then I wasn't look up to as a hero.
I was that family member that was seen as going nowhere
the friend that had a lot of talent but was still considered a zero.
Each day felt like a seesaw somedays were up some were down
maybe it was this town
that made my expression frown.
Maybe it was the friends I chose
the one that kept me on my toes whenever we were going to go get clothes
because I know how they like to impose.
But that's why I took advantage
and decided to take my damage
and vanish.
I didn't know what it was like to forfeit
leave the horses
that helped keep me out the coffin.
I knew that it was abrupt
but that's because I heard something from above that this was enough
find a new love
and that when you look at yourself in the mirror you won't see yourself in disgust.
All we wanted to be was kings
we knew we were young but all we needed were the rings
in order for us to have everything.
This is escape 101
for all the kids that are afraid and feel like five hundred tons
it's okay to run.
This is for all the kids like me all the kids that were tired like me
all the kids that were inspired like me
all the kids that felt like an outsider like me
all the kids that are like me Jesse Sedano. Extortion was who I was not who I am anymore because God came knocking on my door
and of course there was no way I was going to ignore.
I changed my life for the better
because everyday I felt under pressure
but now I know I'm under God's shelter.
I'm still trying to chase my dreams
because one day I'm going to get my family out of this scene.
My family is looking up to me
and there's no way we're going back to poverty
it doesn't matter if I grew up as a minority
I know what is my priority
and one day I'll also give back to my community. This is my life my story
and I know that I have family and friends that will always support me. -Jesse Sedano the kid that always shows up late to class.

Hazeus View

Hey Jesus will my friends ever see you through their Hazeus will they ever see the angel that helped their friend become faithful. How come they keep changing I personally need some explaining because their life is like some war painting I wonder how many of them are still remaining. The last I heard was that another one was gone but Lord I've been trying to hold on. It's hard to wake up to dawn and remember all the times that we were just little prawns doing small time cons not knowing what we were doing was so wrong. Please Jesus help them see through their hazeus. I know that their mind is clouded but show them that you're around give them time like you gave me sooner or later they'll hear the bells chime. They'll find true love once they check the rhyme. They just need time to figure out their problems so then they can blossom because when they were growing up they didn't have any role models. Help them look into the stars and see what's going on upstairs so they know that there's something to look forward to. They need you to help keep them uplifting and comforting rather than them drifting. All they ever wanted was for someone to be there for them but looks like the drugs helped them change and lead them to the gangs. If Heaven was a mile away would you still live life gray or would you run today because I know I wouldn't be able to stay in a world that has no escape.

Experiment

Chercher à celle de haute qualité, tout le monde veut être affichée comme jamais peur. Mais ce est une révision à la baisse parce que ce est un jeu qui ne devrait jamais être joué. Ils se détournent de leurs problèmes pour les bouteilles de toxines jusqu'à leur connaissance est allé jusqu'à l'automne prochain. Trouver quelqu'un qui vous aidera, profiter parce que les amis vont et viennent comme bagages. Soyez heureux. Soyez bavard. Soyez drôle. Soyez bâclée être quelque chose qui vous rend heureux parce que cette chose qui fait mal si mal peut se terminer rapidement.

Piece Of Mind

Why is it my dad has to be working 40+ hours a week why is it I grew up weak. Why couldn't I have a stay at home mom a mom that I can applaud whenever she can help keep me warm. The only person watching me was my brother but he'd rather be with other kids for the summer but he has to take care of his baby brother. Both parents anonymous but they promised that this would help give me confidence. But how was I supposed to believe that when every day there's new arguments in our apartments. Why is it we worked so much but yet life was still tough I guess that's what we get for not giving up. I guess that reflected on me at school because they thought of me as a distraction they should've put a caution sign on me because of all of my stupid actions but that's because I felt abandoned. Kicked out of school for not listening to the rules but I'm still holding on. Why could't my dad help me with sports or help me with life's different course because everyday I feel like it's getting worse. 5th grade I felt stray detention everyday had to write in the dictionary just to participate. It's cause I didn't put in enough effort something I will regret forever but it's something that I think of lesser. This is my piece of mind I was never designed for something like this so I need to rewind and stop walking around so blind. I realize this is reality this is all part of humanity what some people think as normality I think of my family because sometimes we live unhappily. This piece of mind helps give me peace of mind cause I know how I don't want to be with my family in the future.

My deepest fear

So i'm doing this thing where each song fits the blog so evidence- chase the clouds away is going to fit this song and then Piece of Mind by Joey Bada$$ is going to fit my next blog My deepest fear is when my mind isn't clear and my social anxiety takes over my reality. What happened to me I used to try to become friends with everyone but I guess that's because several of them when into Heaven. I just listen to my music in classes because i'm afraid that they're laughing at my fashion but I lose multiple chances to meet new people because my seat belt is already fasten. There are days where I think of giving into weed because sometimes I feel like it's something I need something that will help me feel free. I'm scared of going into work and finding out that I lost another one of my friends because any day now they can meet their end but I know that they've amends. They've accepted fate I wish I can debate but they'll soon reach their estate. I'm afraid to go home it's no rome but it's where my friends and I roll. Family is always arguing with each other it's like thunder no wonder why I always shutter. I'm afraid that I'll mess up with this new girl because when I'm with her my head starts to twirl I feel like i'm in a different world. I hope I don't become nervous oh I know she sees me squirmish but she thinks I'm a great person. I've never felt this way but I shouldn't get my hopes up because she can play with me like a jump rope. But I should be happy because I'm alive i'm living life everyday I survive. I must've chased the dark clouds away it's another day that I don't feel astray because the more I prey I know it'll be a good day. So I shouldn't complain because I'm not afraid I've learned to embrace and erase the mistakes that I used to display.

Crooked Smile

At first I couldn't stand myself but the beauty evened out the beast

 and now I hollow out the streets. I love my crooked smile 

because it shows all of my life style

 all the trials

 that I went through for awhile.

 To all the flawed 

people don't worry even those with those perfect smiles are all frauds

 but they're just better at hiding it then we are.

 It's better to be crooked

 and an open booklet

 because those that are wounded

 can't accept the rugged looking.

 I'm not insecure I'm just shy

 I'm one of those guys 

that girls just run by

 the one that can never supply

 that rich life

 but I do hope that one day I'll have a wife.

 But till then I'll just be living

 and forgiving because i'm missing

 all those kids that were practically my siblings 

but there's beauty in the struggle 

because even though they're in the hustle

 they're still figuring out the puzzle. 

That's when i'll be living cool calm collect 

full of content. 

But I can't help but doubt 

because there's always different routes 

I just hope that they don't succumb to the drought. 

Be happy with your imperfection

 because that's a collection 

of the rejection

 that happened throughout your adolescence.

 It gets better each time you accept it.

This is where I got the idea for this blog but to me this isn't really a blog to me anymore it's more like songs for me now.

Life The Biggest Troll

"It's the game of life. Do I win or do I lose? One day they're gonna shut the game down. I gotta have as much fun and go around the board as many times as I can before it's my turn to leave." -Tupac Shakur “We wouldn't ask why a rose that grew from the concrete for having damaged petals, in turn, we would all celebrate its tenacity, we would all love its will to reach the sun, well, we are the roses, this is the concrete and these are my damaged petals, don't ask me why, thank god, and ask me how” ― Tupac Shakur LIfe the biggest troll over time it takes a toll because you feel like you don't have control it can lead you through a black hole and can one day take that innocent soul. It doesn't matter who we are we all go through similar struggles it doesn't mean we have to go through that dark tunnel alone that's full of our troubles. When we the roses grew from the concrete it doesn't mean that we defeated what came from beneath we need to keep pushing because this world is still full of deceit. WE need to believe that we can succeed. I don't want to feel sadness but yet that's life it comes with different situations that everyone feels across the nations I wish I can chase them but I have to be patient. But of course that's life. You learn from your biggest mistakes when you're in pain or coming up into the real world with damaged petals but I guess that's what makes us special. Is our damaged petals because they can heal because then after everything that's happened. You can feel, You are alive you need to arise like sunrise you've survived don't be surprised tonight isn't the last time that you say goodbye.

Untitled

Today I didn't really know what to write mostly cause I've been confused with everything that's been happening lately. But today was a little different. Today was the first day that I didn't have work in a month I was asleep for 15 hours. But today I remembered all the friends that I have just recently lost and I couldn't handle it. That's why this post is mostly just the new songs that I put on today to help people get though tough times or the battle that they are fighting with themselves. The very first song is what helped me when my friend Brandon passed away. I would have put on more songs but grooveshark doesn't have all of the songs that I listen to. By the way if you listen to Under Pressure by Logic it's not the first part of the song that helped me, it's the second part when he's talking about all of his family struggles.