I've been working hard
I've been searching for God
We're all flowers that started from the bottom
Some just blossom early
While the rest of us are still waiting for pollen
Hoping that we won't be forgotten
This place feels like one big sodom.
My parents tell me we need to be more like a family
How can we do that whenever I'm near the house my heart beats rapidly
Cause I know whenever I'll fall no one would be there to catch me
They wonder why I don't show any apathy.
Why is it that my parents called me a disgrace
To my face did they not think
That I'm just trying to get out of this place.
How come I'm always caught in the middle
How come life feels like some big riddle
Why isn't it more simple.
What I learned from tv shows was to fall in love and get lost
And to always keep reaching for the stars
But many of us are scared of the future
But we're running from our past
It seems like whenever we try it just never lasts
Sometimes you feel like becoming an outkast.
I've been working hard
I've been searching for God
Now I know why my dad is so angry
And why he always has to blame me
But whatever cause he was never there for me
But I don't tell him that
Because that's when he thinks he's in combat.
I only see my dad an hour a day
Maybe if he can see through my eyes and I can show him the replays of my childhood
Then he'll know that I'm grateful of him showing me at an early age this thing called Manhood. Sundays it feels like a stranger is eating dinner
Seems like now I lost that father figure
The one that helped me take out my first splinter
Does he remember when he told me not to be a quitter
And that you have to work everyday if you want to become a winner.
Do you remember when you told me to respect women
I still do that every hour every minute.
Because I don't want them to think of the wrong image.
You were the one that told me everyday don't do drugs
Because if I do it my social life will be done
And the only way I'll see the day of light is if I run.
I took all of your yelling
And yes this is starting to get overwhelming
Does this face look like it's still caring
Because right now it feels like i'm running
And there's no way that you're begging
Will be helping.
Try coming to my games
Maybe that will help these situations change
Oh you have work I see now what a shame
Start talking to me again when i'm not to blame.
I've been working hard
I've been searching for God
Seems like everyday I see all of my different flaws.
I can tell my mom's stressing
I just hope she doesn't end up with depression
Maybe she needs a refreshment
That she's the best that God has sent us.
I wish I could tell her that but I've been answering lesser and lesser
Because I know I don't make things better
I gave them my effort
I feel like I'm under pressure
I never kept things together
My brother was always the one that's been more clever.
But Mom you're the one I don't want to disappoint.
Because you're the one that helped me with my way point.
Mom I'm scared to tell you that I'm not going to college
I know how you tell me knowledge
Is important but I'm here to tell you that this world isn't flawless
Why do you think so many of our brothers and sisters have fallen.
I know that I have the grades
I know I have that GPA
But I don't have the act score that will get me away.
Cause some kid decided to be discreet
And cheat off me
And now we both sit here in defeat.
I just hope that you believe
That whatever I do you'll know I'll achieve
You just have to let me be released
I'm not that kid anymore that was running from the police.
I've been working hard
I've been searching for God
Seems like everyday I see all of my different flaws
Maybe one day all of these claws
Will turn into applause
And then we can all get along.
Listen family I'm so sorry that I've been distant
I know that my timing has been inconsistent
Everything feels so different
I know most of the time I've been resilient
But maybe one day you'll see how this world is so twisted.
I've been searching for God
We're all flowers that started from the bottom
Some just blossom early
While the rest of us are still waiting for pollen
Hoping that we won't be forgotten
This place feels like one big sodom.
My parents tell me we need to be more like a family
How can we do that whenever I'm near the house my heart beats rapidly
Cause I know whenever I'll fall no one would be there to catch me
They wonder why I don't show any apathy.
Why is it that my parents called me a disgrace
To my face did they not think
That I'm just trying to get out of this place.
How come I'm always caught in the middle
How come life feels like some big riddle
Why isn't it more simple.
What I learned from tv shows was to fall in love and get lost
And to always keep reaching for the stars
But many of us are scared of the future
But we're running from our past
It seems like whenever we try it just never lasts
Sometimes you feel like becoming an outkast.
I've been working hard
I've been searching for God
Now I know why my dad is so angry
And why he always has to blame me
But whatever cause he was never there for me
But I don't tell him that
Because that's when he thinks he's in combat.
I only see my dad an hour a day
Maybe if he can see through my eyes and I can show him the replays of my childhood
Then he'll know that I'm grateful of him showing me at an early age this thing called Manhood. Sundays it feels like a stranger is eating dinner
Seems like now I lost that father figure
The one that helped me take out my first splinter
Does he remember when he told me not to be a quitter
And that you have to work everyday if you want to become a winner.
Do you remember when you told me to respect women
I still do that every hour every minute.
Because I don't want them to think of the wrong image.
You were the one that told me everyday don't do drugs
Because if I do it my social life will be done
And the only way I'll see the day of light is if I run.
I took all of your yelling
And yes this is starting to get overwhelming
Does this face look like it's still caring
Because right now it feels like i'm running
And there's no way that you're begging
Will be helping.
Try coming to my games
Maybe that will help these situations change
Oh you have work I see now what a shame
Start talking to me again when i'm not to blame.
I've been working hard
I've been searching for God
Seems like everyday I see all of my different flaws.
I can tell my mom's stressing
I just hope she doesn't end up with depression
Maybe she needs a refreshment
That she's the best that God has sent us.
I wish I could tell her that but I've been answering lesser and lesser
Because I know I don't make things better
I gave them my effort
I feel like I'm under pressure
I never kept things together
My brother was always the one that's been more clever.
But Mom you're the one I don't want to disappoint.
Because you're the one that helped me with my way point.
Mom I'm scared to tell you that I'm not going to college
I know how you tell me knowledge
Is important but I'm here to tell you that this world isn't flawless
Why do you think so many of our brothers and sisters have fallen.
I know that I have the grades
I know I have that GPA
But I don't have the act score that will get me away.
Cause some kid decided to be discreet
And cheat off me
And now we both sit here in defeat.
I just hope that you believe
That whatever I do you'll know I'll achieve
You just have to let me be released
I'm not that kid anymore that was running from the police.
I've been working hard
I've been searching for God
Seems like everyday I see all of my different flaws
Maybe one day all of these claws
Will turn into applause
And then we can all get along.
Listen family I'm so sorry that I've been distant
I know that my timing has been inconsistent
Everything feels so different
I know most of the time I've been resilient
But maybe one day you'll see how this world is so twisted.
I'm barely getting rid of the depression that sucks with me ever since I was an adolescent
My thoughts were in a whirl
I started seeing a new girl
But it all fell through what a world.
That's why my friends were my family
Because we've all been through tragedy.
But now I look to my left and see my brothers selling drugs
While I look to my right and see my sisters hooking up with thugs.
It's been 2 years that I've been clean
Now I know what it's like to not be a fiend.
The last time I saw them they slugged me
They didn't recognize me they almost mugged me.
Now you see why all the things I'm pursuing
All the things that I am doing
Because I see now all the things that I am losing.
I'm a man on a mission
Nothing can stop this ambition
This new life has become my addiction
The Lord has helped me with my vision
I see now all the things I've done has been forgiven.
These are for the ones that I love the ones that I miss
I'll be here if you ever want to reminisce
Or whenever you want to call it quits
I know that it's hard to commit
But don't worry I'll be here to assist
Then you'll see the light
That shines so bright
To help you get through the night
And will help you reach new heights.
Now you've seen that I've grown
Hopefully sooner than later will be known
Because not everything is written in stone
Right now I'm just trying to defy all odds.
And with God on my side
I know that everything will be alright.
I've been working hard
I've been searching for God
Seems like everyday I see all of my different flaws
Maybe one day all of these claws
Will turn into applause
And then we can all get along.
My thoughts were in a whirl
I started seeing a new girl
But it all fell through what a world.
That's why my friends were my family
Because we've all been through tragedy.
But now I look to my left and see my brothers selling drugs
While I look to my right and see my sisters hooking up with thugs.
It's been 2 years that I've been clean
Now I know what it's like to not be a fiend.
The last time I saw them they slugged me
They didn't recognize me they almost mugged me.
Now you see why all the things I'm pursuing
All the things that I am doing
Because I see now all the things that I am losing.
I'm a man on a mission
Nothing can stop this ambition
This new life has become my addiction
The Lord has helped me with my vision
I see now all the things I've done has been forgiven.
These are for the ones that I love the ones that I miss
I'll be here if you ever want to reminisce
Or whenever you want to call it quits
I know that it's hard to commit
But don't worry I'll be here to assist
Then you'll see the light
That shines so bright
To help you get through the night
And will help you reach new heights.
Now you've seen that I've grown
Hopefully sooner than later will be known
Because not everything is written in stone
Right now I'm just trying to defy all odds.
And with God on my side
I know that everything will be alright.
I've been working hard
I've been searching for God
Seems like everyday I see all of my different flaws
Maybe one day all of these claws
Will turn into applause
And then we can all get along.
Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray the Lord my soul to keep.
